Which probably means she caused me to open Dorothy's door: One second I'm in black and white (more on that later!) Pinetta, Florida; the next I'm in the Technicolored Land of Enchantment. Which means, more accurately, her extraordinary beauty made me happy, whether I was in Kansas or Pinetta.
My sister Martha never told me teachers could be beautiful, so I didn't know what to do with that image.
Here are some things that came to mind, probably shortly after I reached my desk on the first day: Don't ever disappoint this woman. Don't ever do anything that would cause her to scold you. Try to win her praise. Try to make her like you. Try to be her favorite.
I'm pretty sure those very thoughts were racing through the minds of most of my classmates.
In addition to being glamorous, she was also left handed and made her check marks backwards. This seemed to intrigue my left-handed dad, and he became eager to have a conference with her.
About her teaching: She seemed genuinely happy to be there, every day, happy to see us, all good cheer and encouragement and twinkling blue eyes -- none of this "don't smile till Thanksgiving" baloney so many teachers use to show that they're the boss and you can't kid around with them because that would show a lack of respect, and hey, I'm in charge here!
Either I really did turn out to be her favorite student or she made everyone feel that way. I would guess the latter. Still, she ruffled my hair, she patted my back, she said, "You can do this! Good job, Roy. Hey, boys and girls! Look how cool Roy's map of Antarctica is! Let's give him a big hand!"
Back then, our grades were E (Excellent), S (Satisfactory), N (Needs Improvement) and U (Unsatisfactory). I think there was also an I (Improving). Well, I wanted only E's, and that's about all I got. Plus, for behavioral issues, we got check pluses, checks, and check minuses. All left-handed backwards check pluses for me!
The climax of the Poindexter era came when she cast me as a bunny in a school play. I don't remember what the play was about, only that it included a bunny.
All I remember is that, against my protests due to a practically terminal case of shyness, Mrs. Poindexter picked me to be the bunny and, I think, she even made the bunny costume, including a terrific cotton tail. She encouraged and praised me throughout rehearsals, so that I actually started looking forward to Opening Night (i.e., the afternoon we performed it).
On the big day, she gave me a much cherished back pat that signaled "enter stage left," and I hopped to center stage with all the confidence and bravado of Bugs Bunny scamming Elmer Fudd.
Bashful as I was, I did not notice the crowd. I noticed Mrs. Poindexter cheering me from the wings, and I was not afraid. Once my performance was complete (I don't think I had any lines), she met me with a hug. I was convinced that I was the star of the show and, more importantly, Mrs. Poindexter's favorite student.
Because I was a 7-year-old boy, planning to grow up to be a man, I still saw no trace of teaching in my future. After my extraordinary turn as a bunny, however, I was entertaining the possibility of becoming an actor. But after a series of unforeseen twists of fate turned me into a teacher, maybe I carried with me, without being aware of it, some Poindexterisms:
Show up every day as if you're attending a party. Be happy to see the young people who make your job possible. When you push a student to grow and to take risks, be her safety net. Reward every kid who does her best. Make every student feel like she's your favorite.
Encourage all of them as they try to get better. Be sure they know you're applauding from the wings. Be stunningly beautiful. (Apparently, some success is possible without that last one.)
Could Mrs. Poindexter possibly have had anything to do with my efforts to do all the wonderful things she did? Maybe, maybe not. As far as I can tell, I did them because I didn't know any other way to conduct myself in front of a captive audience.
Most of the time, I didn't choose to be funny and cheerful (I'm not even a cheerful person -- I'm anxious. gloomy and cynical, a provider of free room and board to a mostly mean-spirited pandemonius interior monologue), that's just who I became when I taught. I was being honest.
Maybe Mrs. Poindexter, too, was a closet crab, cursing some of us little knuckleheads under her breath as she trudged out to her red-and-white 6-cylinder Chevy Bel-Air after school.
Some twenty years would pass before Professor Eugene Crook at FSU would model that same joyful teaching style, differing only in that he he took it to the borders of insanity -- not only was he friendly, he loved the books he taught so much he always seemed to be opening his favorite Christmas present.
About 10 years after second grade, I saw Mrs. Poindexter again. You'd think I would've greeted her in a mature manner and told her how much her kindness meant to me, and how rare it was. You'd be wrong.
I was in a 7-11 in Monticello, Florida, and I saw her get out of her car and walk inside. For a brief moment, whatever remained of the shy 7-year-old inside me shot an arrow from a Valentine's-Day-card Cupid right at her lovely heart.
Unable to sort through the confusing combination of present and past emotions and the memories her beauty evoked, I did the only sensible thing I could think of: I ducked into the beer cooler and stared at her through six-packs of beer bottles.
Having made her purchase -- two packs of Wrigley's Spearmint gum -- she abruptly left. I swallowed hard at my missed opportunity, and walked out of the cooler, my glasses immediately fogging up.
By now, of course, my bunny suit has no doubt turned to ashes, and my teen-aged awkwardness is almost gone. Mrs. Poindexter must be a very old woman, maybe even growing lonesome and waiting for someone to say "hello in there." But I don't think so.
Her eyes surely still twinkle with love and hope, and she greets each new aching uncertain day with good cheer.
But just in case: Hello in there, Mrs. Poindexter. I love you.
|Mrs. Poindexter two years ago. Still smiling!|
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